|I'll just let it get out in the open
||[Jan. 3rd, 2006|01:36 am]
Well for real everyone I have so much stupid bullshit going on in my life and i'm just sick of it..I'm sick of dealing with it..And i'm sick of pretending that i care about things when i don't..So i'm just going to get all this shit off my best even though i've said it a million times..It seems to not go through anyones head..
Autumn..I don't care about the friendship anymore..I brought u back into living at my house and once again i get fucked it truly feels like you have used my family and me from the get go..I'm done dealing with shit that i don't have to deal with that means the friendship..I am better off with out you in my life..I don't have to worry about you or ur business..I don't have to walk around with a back bone to everyone because it's not fair..I'm sick of you bullshitting to my face that you don't talk shit about me when my own family says you do..Come on now..it does not get more clear then that..I don't care about what you're going through or who ur going through it with.I don't care anymore..Because like i've said a million times i'm better off with out you in my life.. This is not supposed to be gold hearted but i know it's coming off that way because i've heard the last part of gossip from other people..At least u know what i say, i don't hold back anymore..Because i don't give a fuck.. First..Let me tell you this..Ashley will always be my best friend, she don't talk shit about me, were on the same page when it comes to guys, she don't play games with other people and make it a mission to hurt everyone in there life, and she's real..Second..You have no room to talk shit about my boyfriend and the way he looks because honestly..Ur shallow and u have no clue of what true love is when u can only look at someone for what they have and not a heart.. So please step the fuck off ur little world and realize i'm not u i don't care what u say about my boyfriend and to be prefectly honest i don't give a fuck what u say about me anymore.. Get over urself..Third.. I really wish that you would see you're self with the way people see you like i might have meat on me..And i might be a bitch to certain people ..But deep down i have a good heart and i let people like u fuck me over time and time again..Let me go on..My dad and my mom have been there for u for how many years letting you live under there house for free and what do you do..Consantly hurt them..I don't care anymore..I wish u would just move out and leave me and my family alone ..Yea it's coming off real mean now but ..You want to blow my shit out..you want to punch me in the face u tell Justin shit about things that arent even true..Ur a miserable person and ur trying to make my life as miserable as yours and u almost made it happen then i realized ..That I'M NOT GOING TO LET U.. I'm not going to let u hurt me because thats what u want..U want to hurt me so u can win..Well sorry hun it's just not going to happen...
If you have not realized Autumn it's not tom that scares people away it's you..Because u dont' know what u want you don't know how to treat people you act like someones ur best friend..and then u just talk shit about them..And..Best friends don't do that..best friends don't do what u have done 2 me..and even what i've done to you..I can't take ur bullshit anymore..I can't take u hurting me anymore..and i can't take ur lies anymore..I'm done with u i'm writing u off right now..Like i told u last night..When i say fuck u now..I mean it..and guess what i'm saying Fuck u..
I'm not saying i'm sorry for this cause i'm not..I'm not being fake with u anymore because i don't care ..I'm not talking shit anymore about u because i'm lowering myself like u..I'm not u.And i don't want to be I have a great family that loves me..and a boyfriend that would die for me..and friensd that don't talk shit about me..So have a real nice life because i'm done!!
Oh yea next time..Thanks for cutting my head out of are picture ..Best friends.Ha ..what a fucking joke!!